Today's Happenings
I know I've missed a couple of days here. For that I'm sorry. Yesterday, I didn't feel like doing anything. I didn't crawl out of my bed until 11:30 AM. Yes, I was wide awake. However, I just didn't want to get out of my bed yesterday. That's what depression will do to you.
Today however was different. And let me tell you why it was different. I had something to look forward to. My little girl was coming home for a couple of hours this afternoon. That's right, my children and grandchildren are the only bright spot in my life right now. So I got out of bed, and vacuumed the house before Angel got here. I also swept the kitchen and dining room. While sweeping the dining room, I found the present that my cat, Poseidon, had tucked away for me. Yes, he likes to leave me dead mice to find. At least this one was intact. Usually they're headless. EWW!
Shortly before Angel was due to arrive, I baked cup cakes. Then she and I baked Fudge Brownies. Once the cupcakes were cooled, she frosted them. And then we also made Bird Feeders out of empty toilet paper rolls, peanut butter, bird seed, and twine. I enjoy doing things like this with my children. It teaches them how to do new things, and it's quality time that we spend together. Michael likes when we go for walks while I'm visiting with him up where he's at. I understand why though. There's more to see and do up there than there is here where we live. Plus, we don't exactly live in town here either.
I also decided today to get involved in Tupperware. My ex husband's wife is correct. I DO know a lot of people here. And I'm working on getting my mom and my sisters involved as well. I know I don't do well with people in my home right now. However, I was thinking that perhaps if I start small, and then go from there, I should be okay. I do know though that I would feel more comfortable to start if I were to hold the parties in my home. It's only because I'm more comfortable in my home rather than someone else's.
So last weekend Angel spent the weekend here at home. That was her first weekend home since the removal. Now I'm trying to get our Foster Care worker to approve Michael to spend this weekend at home. Next weekend is Legacy at Eagle Village, and he won't get there until Friday after school. And I know that both kids need that one on one with me as well for a little bit. And then Angel is coming home for Thanksgiving. I still don't know if our worker is going to allow Michael to come home for the holiday as well. I asked her, and she came up with what sounded like a bunch of excuses as to why she couldn't give an answer. But then, she does that all the time. Frankly, it's getting damn tiresome and old.
It seems like all she does is make up excuses to prolong my children from returning home. I've done everything they have asked of me. So what does she do? She amends the Parent Agency Treatment Plan and adds something else to it. Then she can go in and tell the Judge that I haven't done everything requested. I bring this fact to the judge's attention, and he allowed her to get away with it. How is that unbiased and impartial? No matter what I do, he ALWAYS sides with DHS, and finds fault with me for something. Sometimes I feel like he either looks for things to find fault with, or will make up things just so he can find fault. No matter what I do, the deck is stacked against me. And I don't feel like my attorney is even trying to level the playing field for me. I try to trust my attorney. But he just sits there, and doesn't speak up for me when I'm getting burned at the stake.
It is because of the way I have been treated by the Court, DHS, and my attorney, that I have decided to go back to school, finish my paralegal degrees, and go to Law School. I don't want to see what is being done to me, done to yet another family. The Courts and DHS need to be held accountable. And that is what these Family Law attorneys are supposed to be doing.
Well, I'm sorry for rambling on once again. Hope all of you have a good night. Sweet dreams. I'll be back sometime in the morning after I wake up perhaps. Otherwise, see you tomorrow night. Then I can tell you all about my day tomorrow. Not sure just yet what is all on the agenda for tomorrow.
Today however was different. And let me tell you why it was different. I had something to look forward to. My little girl was coming home for a couple of hours this afternoon. That's right, my children and grandchildren are the only bright spot in my life right now. So I got out of bed, and vacuumed the house before Angel got here. I also swept the kitchen and dining room. While sweeping the dining room, I found the present that my cat, Poseidon, had tucked away for me. Yes, he likes to leave me dead mice to find. At least this one was intact. Usually they're headless. EWW!
Shortly before Angel was due to arrive, I baked cup cakes. Then she and I baked Fudge Brownies. Once the cupcakes were cooled, she frosted them. And then we also made Bird Feeders out of empty toilet paper rolls, peanut butter, bird seed, and twine. I enjoy doing things like this with my children. It teaches them how to do new things, and it's quality time that we spend together. Michael likes when we go for walks while I'm visiting with him up where he's at. I understand why though. There's more to see and do up there than there is here where we live. Plus, we don't exactly live in town here either.
I also decided today to get involved in Tupperware. My ex husband's wife is correct. I DO know a lot of people here. And I'm working on getting my mom and my sisters involved as well. I know I don't do well with people in my home right now. However, I was thinking that perhaps if I start small, and then go from there, I should be okay. I do know though that I would feel more comfortable to start if I were to hold the parties in my home. It's only because I'm more comfortable in my home rather than someone else's.
So last weekend Angel spent the weekend here at home. That was her first weekend home since the removal. Now I'm trying to get our Foster Care worker to approve Michael to spend this weekend at home. Next weekend is Legacy at Eagle Village, and he won't get there until Friday after school. And I know that both kids need that one on one with me as well for a little bit. And then Angel is coming home for Thanksgiving. I still don't know if our worker is going to allow Michael to come home for the holiday as well. I asked her, and she came up with what sounded like a bunch of excuses as to why she couldn't give an answer. But then, she does that all the time. Frankly, it's getting damn tiresome and old.
It seems like all she does is make up excuses to prolong my children from returning home. I've done everything they have asked of me. So what does she do? She amends the Parent Agency Treatment Plan and adds something else to it. Then she can go in and tell the Judge that I haven't done everything requested. I bring this fact to the judge's attention, and he allowed her to get away with it. How is that unbiased and impartial? No matter what I do, he ALWAYS sides with DHS, and finds fault with me for something. Sometimes I feel like he either looks for things to find fault with, or will make up things just so he can find fault. No matter what I do, the deck is stacked against me. And I don't feel like my attorney is even trying to level the playing field for me. I try to trust my attorney. But he just sits there, and doesn't speak up for me when I'm getting burned at the stake.
It is because of the way I have been treated by the Court, DHS, and my attorney, that I have decided to go back to school, finish my paralegal degrees, and go to Law School. I don't want to see what is being done to me, done to yet another family. The Courts and DHS need to be held accountable. And that is what these Family Law attorneys are supposed to be doing.
Well, I'm sorry for rambling on once again. Hope all of you have a good night. Sweet dreams. I'll be back sometime in the morning after I wake up perhaps. Otherwise, see you tomorrow night. Then I can tell you all about my day tomorrow. Not sure just yet what is all on the agenda for tomorrow.
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